Jesus answered, "Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks the water I give him will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life."

The woman said to him, "Sir, give me this water so that I won't get thirsty and have to keep coming here to draw water."

He told her, "Go, call your husband and come back."

"I have no husband," she replied. --john 4: 13-17

last sunday i sat in on a neat little church service. the pastor delivered the message in a way that was real and passionate. his message dealt with the text of Jesus and the woman at the well. there's a small bit of the text that hadn't struck me before until the pastor pointed it out. with the image of the well in the backs of our minds when view Jesus digging a well straight into the woman's heart it makes what he says to her jump off the page. in his response to her asking for the "living water" he digs straight into her heart and mentions her husband. they both know she doesn't have one...she's had five...and the man she lives with now isn't her husband at all. talk about touching a nerve. talk about digging deep into the woman so that the spring of living water can gush forth. incredible.

i feel i'm in that place myself. since my last night at johnson i feel like Jesus has nailed me straight in the heart. suddenly i find myself asking, regretfully once more, am i really where God wants me? my brain is in turmoil as i wonder my true purpose for being on the outer banks. i fear that i'm missing a bigger opportunity. i worry i'm not living up to my true potential. is that too bold of me? once more i find myself in a place of needing to lunge right into the arms of God and hold on for dear life. why i ever slipped out of that place i'll never know.

it's a great feeling though. because i know the outcome of the last time i put as much trust in God as i could muster. it was one of the greatest moments of my life. i know that God will reveal himself in a big way. but it will be in those small ways as well. i want eyes to see it all. and put my all into everything i'm doing.

the key is to concentrate on the moment i'm in. one day at a time...