i really need to keep up with this thing more.

it's been an interesting few weeks. i always feel like i'm being stretched in multiple directions as i learn, grow and mature. but also at the same time i find myself just standing still while the part of me that's growing is yelling, "what the heck are you doing? MOVE." figuratively that is...

i've seen apart of me be reborn. it's been a welcoming occurance. my love and appreciation for the littlest things in life is finally back. near the end of my last year at johnson i realized that i didn't soak up precious little moments anymore and that's bothered me. it has kinda felt like one whole side of me has been numb. and then a few days ago i noticed little things were bringing a smile to my face. for example, while standing in line at the grocery store i found a penny at my feet. in my head i said, "see a penny pick it up and all day you'll have good luck!" though i'm not one for supersticions i couldn't help but have a silly grin on my face as i pocketed that penny. another example is a few days ago a friend and i went to walmart to get some supplies to make our beach trip more fun. i grabbed my favorite, bubbles and we took a random trip further down the toy isle and saw the ever trusty bin full of big, colorful balls. withouth hesitating we grabbed one.

i adore feeling like a kid. imagination will always be a prized possesion of mine. i'll be the first to tell you i love cartoons. i wish i were still small enough to play with cardboard boxes. nickelodeon in the early 90's was the best tv i've ever watched. i'm not ashamed to love these little things that make life and memories so sweet. i love feeling like a little girl by the waves. i soak up those moments where i'm blissfully aware of how small i am and just how GREAT God is. that He looks down with such a smile on His face. i love being enamored by His detail and that He chooses to share it with us.

i feel so alive.