somehow i managed to be on the go just enough to forget something that was most important in my day: to swing by pathway's 24-7 prayer station for my prayer slot. four hours later it hits me that i completely forgot. i would have much rather been in that room too. instead i was trying my hardest to find the HR office for kitty hawk kites- a job i don't even really want. boo.

so yeah, i ended up having a random interview for a job i don't really want because my hours keep getting cut at southern bean. today i txt my boss and asked him when our hours would start getting normal again and all he said was, "someday." yeah. real professional eric. it bothers me that this job isn't working anymore. of course the one job i actually enjoy doesn't give me enough time/money. i'm making about the same wages i made in college on work study. that my friends, is just sad. amy knows someone at her church that had asked back in the fall if i would want a job for this coming summer. i told her to contact the lady and say yes. but the downfall is that still after summer's end i'm still going to be looking AGAIN for work. this is one of the biggest downfalls to living by the ocean. you only have work when you have tourists...lots and lots of tourists. ugh.

if you've been keeping up with me somewhere in the above paragraph was a little clue that i've made my decision to stick around the outer banks. honestly i'll probably stay here until God drops something else in my lap. since this past sunday at the first adult vision team meeting for ob pres youth i've had a growing passion for that ministry and a refreshed heart for this community. i think when i finally let go of trying to figure out "what's next" my eyes and heart were able to focus on the tasks at hand. it's sad it took me nearly the entire time of living here to really dig in but at least it's finally happening. carpe diem really is such a light and free way to live. i don't know why i try so hard to look so far ahead instead of just loving what i've got. to seize the day. to not worry about tomorrow. i'm learning.

other than that i don't know if i have much to report. i did get to talk to my best friend today. that was wonderful. we don't get to talk too often but when we get to catch up it's fabulous. something i love about our friendship is that we've been friends for so long, about fourteen years (wow), that it always feels like nothing has kept us apart when we talk or see each other. honestly i'm blessed with the far away friends that i have, most of them are still really close to me. :] yay for that. yay for family.

do you know who else i've enjoyed having contact with? mr alex weiiiiiss. for a good while now we've been talking regularly (thank you facebook chat!) just about everyday i think. its been wonderful watching and hearing all the crazy things God is doing in his life and with his life. i miss that kid and our random trips to mckays and starbucks to just talk life. so alex, if you catch this, i'm proud of you my friend! so proud.

phil told me the other day that i'll be teaching the youth lesson in a month or so. i've been mulling ideas over and i'm getting excited about what i'm going to do. i'm going to be combining some pretty important elements to this little "family"...but i'll have to run them by the vision team just to make sure i won't be interfeiring with anyone's responisiblity/ministry. :]

ah yes, i'm breathing again. it feels great. the only thing that would make this even better is more quality time with my peeps throughout the week. i miss weekly meetings with katie, i'd love to have more time with tristen, i miss so much hanging out with my original summer crew: daniel, matty, jo, landon, harris, elsie, claire, dave ,etc... i love these kids. i still so wish i could have been their youth minister but i'm learning to let it go. i'm learning to let a lot go.