i'm extremely emotional tonight.
and of course when i'm actually at my busiest do i find myself wanting to just hide away in my room.

i think what makes it hurt more is that there's no one i can talk to about a good portion of what's weighing down my heart. well, i can talk to people about it, but there's not really anyone who understands anymore or will at least think my pain is legit. that sounds ridiculous i know.

when i'm weakest, He is strongest. i wish i could fully press into Him and allow Him to take the pain away. yet i still hold onto it like it's all i've got left.

if anyone actually reads this, please pray for me. i'm so sad.