for the past i don't know how long i've been waking up at ridiculous hours of the morning. lately it's been somewhere in the neighborhood of 5:30-6:30. but i have to admit, i'm enjoying becoming a morning person. i like not being tired when i wake up. on the other than i wish i were still in bed.

it's been a long time since i've posted. ever since this meeting i had for an outreach that's happening at the end of the summer (impact outer banks) my life has hit full speed. i have to say, i've never been happier. even in the midst of my slow job situation amongst other things i have remained positive and joyful. that generally isn't the case with me.

God has been moving in big ways. the past three-four weeks have reignited my passion. i'm not really sure i ever understood why i had been called to youth ministry until now. interacting with the teenagers has been one of the biggest blessings of my entire life. there have been a few friday nights where a few of them have sat down and opened up to me. their lives are hard and it breaks my heart. there is such a need for consistant youth leaders on this island. the teenagers are "ripe for the picking." they are leaders who've yet been exposed to their true potential. diamonds in the rough. these kids are brilliant and passionate and motivated and they need people who will take the time to harvest relationships with them....and to stick around. that's one of the biggest problems here. youth leaders don't stay for more than a few years.

i never expected to fall so hard for a group of people. some may think that i love them just because i'm living on the outer banks. but that isn't the case at all. that's just a perk and a blessing that i do not deserve.

would you believe me if i told you i was in the process of staying? it'll be a complicated process but i welcome the challenge. i know that it will be far worth it in the end. it already is. i do not doubt God's provision (even if i have lately some what). but...this is a story that needs to be left for another time. :]